Adobo

"Ano uulamin natin?"

"Ano ba meron sa ref?"

"Manok."

"I-adobo mo na lang."

"ADOBO NANAMAN!?!?!"

Eto ang paboritong lutuin sa aming bahay. Kapag walang maisip na ulam, adobo na lang. Kung di ba naman i araw araw ang pagluluto nito, sino ba naman hindi mapupurga sa masarsang mantika at ubod ng bangong ADOBO. Specialty kaya to ng kuya ko, pati ng asawa nito.

Parang kahapon lang, ulam namin 'to. Ngayon ulam nanaman namin 'to. Pinagkaiba lang, may patatas kahapon. NO CHOICE! Gutom na gutom ka na at nagmamadaling pumunta sa kusina. Pagbukas ng kaldero, tantananan! ADOBO!

Puno na ata ng toyo ang utak ng mga tao dito. Walang ibang alam lutuin kundi adobo. Di na ko magtataka kung meron pang matitira para sa hapunan. Sayang nga naman kung may matitira, bumili na lang ng baboy para pandagdag dito. Guess what? Adobo again ang ulam dito.

ADOBO! ABODO! ADOOB! ABOOD!

Pagbalik baliktarin mo man, kahit lagyan mo pa ng patatas, Manok man o baboy, laputan mo ng sabaw o ibabad sa mantika. Lagyan ng real herbs at spices. At kahit budburan mo ng salamangka, basta may toyo ka, ADOBO pa rin yan.

Nakakapurga!

Nakakasawa!

Ang sarap isuka!

Angal ka? Kung paborito mo adobo, wala kong pakielam sayo. Pumunta ka dito sa bahay at papakainin kita ng sangkatutak na adobo.

Kainan na!

Hate Myself

Words cannot describe the emotions I feel right now.
Words cannot describe the emotions you must feel right now.
I am so far from the person I want to be right now that it makes me hate myself.
I can only promise that I will get there and I will make you proud to be committed to me again.
If there is one thing in my life that I hope to accomplish, this is it.

The heartache, sorrow, anger, sadness, and disgust that you feel right now is something that I wish I could take away and feel for you. I know that's impossible but maybe somehow or someway I can slowly ease those feelings off of you and try to get the only thing that matter to me back. That thing is you. I have a long road ahead of me, and I want you in the passenger seat.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

Ang Labo mehn!!!

Bkit ganun?

Eto ang tanong na madalas natin nasasabi kapag nasasaktan tayo. Napakalawak kung sasagutin yan. Kahit alam mo kung bakit tayo nasasaktan. Hindi mo maiiwasan ang tanungin sa sarili mo, bkit ganun? May mali nanaman ba ako? Ang alam ko lng, nagmahal ako ng totoo.

Bakit ganun? Ano ba talaga ang silbi ko sa buhay? Nagmahal ka lang naman. Ikaw pa dehado. Kahit anong gawin ko, naiiwanan pa rin. Subukan mong magpaka-dominante, iiwanan ka kase nasasakal sya sayo. Subukan mong magpakumbaba, gawin ang lahat para di mo sya masakal at masaktan, iiwanan ka pa rin kase sobrang bait mo daw. Hindi ka nararapat para sa kanya. Paano ba ang magmahal ng tama?

Ginagawa mo lang naman ang mga bagay na to kase nagmamahal ka. Minamahal mo sya. Bakit? Kase masaya ka. Masaya ka sa piling nya. Ano bang kulang? Ano ba ang nasobrahan? Mali ba ang iparamdam sa kanya kung gaano mo sya kamahal? Siguro, ako talaga ang mali. Dahil hindi naman talaga nya ko gusto. Masyado lng siguro ako umasa sa mga sinabi nya. Kumapit at nanindigan. Ang totoo, nagpapasalamat lang sya kasi ginawa ko iyon para sa knya. At hanggang doon lang. Kaibigan lang.

Ang hirap kung paano mo ipaglalaban ang nararamdaman mo. Hindi mo maipaliwanag. Lalo na ang bigat ng dahilan kung bakit hanggang kaibigan lang ang maibibigay nya sayo. Wala ka talagang laban. Susuko ka na lang at magmumukmok. Iiyak. Bakit ganun?

Ipinaramdam ko sa kanya kung gaano sya kahalaga sa kin. Kung ano ang nagbago sa buhay ko simula nang dumating sya. Ipinaramdam ko kung gaano ako kasaya. Kung pano sya naging isang inspirasyon. Pero matatapos din pala ito. Hindi ko nakita ang harang sa daan na tinatahak ko. Mga tinik na makakapagdulot ng sugat at hapdi sa sarili ko. Kailangan kong umatras. Kailangan kong bumalik. Pero di ko alam kung san ako magsisimulang muli. Kung san ako liliko para ipagpatuloy ang daan na nilalakbay ko.

Lumilipad ang utak ko.
Magulo.
Malabo.
Naliligaw.
Gusto kong umupo.
At magpahinga muli.
Umaasa na sa susunod, merong kamay na magtatayo sa kin at aakayin para samahan ako sa daan na tinatahak ko.

Surprises... (a sequel to the blog entry, the TEXT...)

its past midnight.
spending the few hours remaining.
thinking what might happen.
where we might go.
still puzzled to what's jigger's plan.

he's with me now.
but still no clues from him.
i am wondering.
i am nervous.
what am i here for?

surprises...surprises...
let us just wait for the sun to rise.
There's no need to worry.
No need to think about.
The only thing that should surprise us is that
there are still some things that can surprise us.

Inspirasyon at Panalangin

eto ang kauna-unahang tagalog entry ko sa blog na to. gusto ko kasi maiparamdam sa lahat kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ngyon. ibang iba sa naramdaman ko noon. biglang nabuhay ang loob ko dahil sa isang inspirasyon.

kilala ako bilang isang matigas na tao. sabihin nating walang puso. ang alam lang gawin ay maglaro at magsaya araw-araw. dumarating sa buhay ko ang magmahal at di rin nagtatagal bigla na lng masasaktan. eto siguro ang dahilan kung bakit ako ganito.

may mga araw, kapag nag-iisa ako, di ko maiwasang maging malungkot. mag-isip ng mga bagay na lalong makakapagparamdam sa kin ng pag-iisa. kapag nakakita ako ng dalawang magkasintahan (naks!), di ko maiwasang mainggit. sana meron din ako.

marami akong naging karanasan pagdating sa "love". naging matigas ako dahil ayoko masaktan. maglaro kung kinakailangan. pero hindi sapat yun para maging masaya ako. Hindi ako ito. Puro pagbabalat-kayo. Gusto ko dumating ang araw na mayroon akong mamahalin at magmamahal sa kin. Inisip ko na para mangyari iyon ay simulan ko sa sarili ko ang pagbabago. Kailangan matuto akong magmahal muli.

Binalikan ko ang mga pagkakamali ko. Ano nga ba ang mali sa kin? Noong una, alam ko wala akong mali. Ang alam ko lang lagi akong niloloko ng taong mahal ko. Pero bakit nga ba ako niloloko? Bumalik sa kin ang tanong, siguro may mali ako? Kung sa pagiging loyal lang. Sigurado wala akong pagkukulang dun. Kapag ako ang nagmahal, tumingin at kiligin man ako sa iba, iisa lang ang nasa puso ko.

ORAS! yan ang sumbat ng ilang ex ko. "wala kang time para sa kin!", "Lagi kang nasa tapat ng PC mo!", "Puro ka Ragnarok! DOTA!". Paano ko ba maipapaliwanag sa kanila na kahit ganito ang libangan ko, sila pa rin ang mahal ko. Naisip ko, kahit sabihin mong mahal mo ang isang tao, hindi sapat yun para maiparamdam mo sa knila na mahal mo sila. Tama nga naman. Kailangan mo iparamdam na nandyan ka sa pamamagitan ng paglalaan ng oras mo para sa kanila.

TIWALA! kailangan yan isang relasyon. Kung walang ganito. Bigyan mo na ng taning ang relasyon nyo. Pero paano ka magtitiwala sa isang taong puno ng lihim. Puro pagsisinungaling. O ayaw man lang magsalita tungkol sa mga problema. Dito pumapasok ang salitang:

TAPAT! Honest kung di mo maintindihan. Karapat dapat lang na ibigay sa iyo ang tiwala kung tapat ka sa taong mahal mo. Magkakambal yan eh. Kung wala ang isa, walang saysay ang lahat. Bigla ko ulit naisip, naging tapat ba ako sa mga ex ko?

Paulit ulit kong binalikan ang mga pangyayari. Ang mga pagkakamali. Handa ko na bang talikuran ang mga bagay na nakagisnan ko? Handa na ba akong ibigay ang aking tiwala at magtiwala muli? Hindi na ba ako maglilihim at handang ibigay lahat ang aking sarili?

Handa na ako!

Subalit lalo lang akong nalungkot. Eh ano ngyon kung handa na ako? Mag-isa pa rin ako. Lalo lang ako natakot na baka walang taong nararapat para sa pagmamahal ko. Ngunit bakit ako matatakot? Kapag nagmahal ka, hindi ka dapat mangamba. Eh kung lokohin ka nila, hindi ikaw ang nawalan kundi sila. Maghihintay lamang ako ng tamang panahon para dito. Nananalangin na mayroon isang taong darating na para sa akin. Hindi dapat magmadali.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kapag dumating ang araw na mayroon na kong mamahalin, ibibigay ko ng buong buo ang sarili ko. Ilalaan ko ang oras ko sa kanya. Pwede na kong makapag simulang muli habang karamay sa sa hirap at ginhawa.

Tama ba tong ginagawa ko? Naghihintay lang at walang ginagawa? Malungkot at namumuti ang mata sa kakahintay sa taong karapat dapat. Sobra na ang aking paghihintay. Lalo lang ako nalulungkot kapag naiisip ko ang mga bagay na to. Kailangan magrelax. Kailangan mag enjoy.

Isa sa mga libangan ko ay ang makipag usap sa chat. Hindi para maghanap kundi dahil para maglibang. "Anu hanap mo dito?" eto ang karaniwang tanong sa kin ng mga taong nakakasalamuha ko sa internet. Sanay na ko sa mga ganyang banat. Alam ko ang tunay na kahulugan na nagtatago sa tanong na yan. "Usap lang." Diretsong sagot ko sa tanong. Matira ang interesado at kakausapin ko. Ngunit di pa tapos ang salaan. Mayroon kasi na may hidden agenda. Kunwari makikipag usap lang pero babalik lang sa gusto nilang patunguhan. Seks! Di na kong nagdadalawang isip i-ignore ang mga taong ganun. Sawa na ko sa ganung sistema at kalakal ng mga taong nakatambay sa chatroom. Gusto ko ng matinong at masayang usapan.

Sa pagkayamot, di ko inaakalang may biglang papasok sa buhay ko. Bukod tangi sa lahat. Walang alinlangan. Walang pagpapanggap. Nakuha nya ang atensyon ko. Ano nga bang meron sa taong ito at tila biglang nag iba ang ihip ng hangin at napangiti nya ko. Pinabisita nya sa kin ang blog nya. Di naman ako mahilig magbasa noon ng blogs. Binisita ko lang. Tinanong nya ko kung binasa ko at sabi ko naman hindi. Pinilit nya kong basahin yun pero pabiro kong sinabi na gusto ko basahin nya yun para sa kin. Natuwa ako dahil ginawa nya iyon. Tinawagan nya ko sa voicechat at binasa ang huling entry sa kanyang blog. Tungkol pa rin iyon sa 'love'. Habang pinakikinggan ko sa boses nya at iniintindi ang laman ng kanyang entry, hindi ko maiwasang lumipad ang isipan ko. Hindi nalalayo ang paniniwala namin sa 'love'. Magkakasundo kami nito.

Hindi nagtagal ay dumalas ang aming pag uusap. Marami kaming napag usapan at naibahagi sa isa't isa. Dumating pa nga sa puntong meron na kaming plano para sa mga darating na araw. Simula nun unti unting nahulog ang aking loob sa kanya. Madalas ko na syang naaalala. Madalas na syang nasa isip ko. Naging inspirasyon ko sya sa paggawa ko ng blog na to.

Dumating ang oras na parang biglang may nagbago sa pag uusap namin. Biglang lumamig. Noong oras na iyon ay di ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. Biglang bumalik ang lungkot na nararamdaman ko. Umamin syang nasa malayong lugar sya at matagal pa bago kami magkita. Wag ko na daw syang isipin masyado at wala naman patutunguhan. Lalo lang akong masasaktan. Hindi sapat iyon para sumuko ako. Sya ang taong hinintay ko ng matagal. Sya ang muling nakapagpasaya sa kin. Nangako akong hinding hindi ako mawawala at patuloy ko pa rin syang kakausapin kahit nasa malayong lugar sya. Walang iwanan. At nawala rin ang lungkot sa ming dalawa. Pakiramdam ko lalong tumindi ang samahan namin.

Bumalik ang saya at kulitan sa mga sumunod na araw. Ngunit sa di inaasahang pangyayari, nagbalik rin ang ex nyang mahal pa nya ng sobra. Muling nagparamdam. Humihingi ng isa pang pagkakataon. Naguluhan ng tuluyan ang pag iisip nya. Mayroon bang dapat piliin? Sino ang mas matimbang? Bigla akong natakot na maaring iyon na ang huli naming pag uusap. Nangamba na baka biglang mawala sya at maiwanan ako sa ere. Alam kong kailangan nyang mag-isip. Kailangan nya ng oras. Sinabi naman nya na kahit anong mangyari ay hindi sya mawawala at mang iiwan. Napangiti ako at nawala ang takot na naramdaman ko. Sapat na sa kin ang mga salitang iyon.

Sobrang saya ko dahil nakakilala ako ng ganitong tao. Sya ang aking inspirasyon. Sya ang nakakapagpasaya sa kin. Sya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito ngayon at nagsusulat. Sya ang dahilan kung bakit ako laging nakangiti. Sya ang nagbigay daan upang magmahal akong muli. Sya ang dahilan kaya hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Sya ang taong gusto ko, sya ang taong mahal ko. Sya ang sagot sa aking panalangin.

the TEXT...

the phone's loud ring woke me up this evening. it was past nine and my stomach's craving for food. i got up and went to the kitchen, wondering what's for dinner. i opened the casserole's lid and saw a very common dish cooked by my brother; adobong sitaw! I lost my appetite.

I took some pieces of tofu and made my way to the living room. I just watch TV then Suddenly my cellphone beeps...

Jigger; 10.00PM: Teng and Tux, are u free on May 06, 9am?

Wondering about the text, i logged in my messenger and saw James online. i buzzed him and asked what's with Jigger's text. James doesn't know. We're both skeptic about it. Jigger don't usually asks us out that early in the morning.

So i told James to ask Jigger what's on Wednesday. I cannot text him coz i don't have credits. While waiting Jigger to respond, James assumed that he has something to confess. But I doubt it.

Beep...

Jigger; 10.26PM: Teng, reply asap!

My curiousity began to rise. I quickly logged in my Chikka ID and texted to confirm him that i am free on the 6th. I also asked him silly if he's going to propose to his lover and we are invited to witness that special day.

We've been always texting like we're just fooling around. Saying some things that are always funny.

Beep...

Jigger; 10.33PM: there's a secret wedding. don't tell anybody. Are u in?

I replied yes.

Still wondering about what's on 6th of May, my thoughts became more playful when my cellphone beeped again...

Jigger; 10.42PM: Do u have your valid ID and a 2x2 picture? Pls bring it on wednesday.

"Yes, i still have my antique school ID and i'll just pass by in a photo shop to have my photo of myself taken." I replied seriously and hit another joke. "What's that for? Are we going to join the audition or something?"

Beep...

Jigger; 10.46PM: Tux and Teng, I'll just explain it when you two get here. I just need your confirmation. I have Bai and Britney in the waiting list if ever you two are not free. Don't forget your valid ID and 2x2 pics. I love you both. Prepare yourselves.

And there's another text. Beep...

Jigger, 10:47PM: woi, promise Tux and Teng, it's not a joke. 10-26-84, is that correct Teng? How bout u Tux, when is your bday?

I corrected him. 27th is my birthday. Lost for thoughts, James suddenly buzzed and asked me if I got the boss' request. And foolishly said, "Yes. And we're going to practice Beyonce's single ladies dance steps tomorrow. You're gonna be in the middle and the choreographer."

James made a loud laugh. "Fuck you! :))".

"I dont have any idea about his plan. What do you reckon?" I said.

"I dont know either. I think I should bring 1K pocket money. We might go to Puerto Princesa Palawan. :))" He replied.

Beep...

Jigger; 10:49PM: Teng and Tux, Can u sleep over here tomorrow evening of May 5. So that on the 6th, we're set together? Power of Three?

I knew Jigger know me so well that's why he requested it. I'm always late whenever we have our gimmicks and trips. My thoughts grew bigger. Why he insists that we must get there on time. This must be serious.

"Tomorrow, i'll just pass by. I'm not going to spend the evening there. I had to go home." James said.

Thinking that i might be late on Wednesday. I decided to spend the night in Jigger's place. "You know me." I added.

"Ok. ok. I'll just see you there then." He replied.

Beep...

Jigger; 10.51PM: Teng and Tux, don't tell anyone ok? It's prohibited.

How are we suppose to tell anyone? We don't have the slightest idea on what will happen on the 6th. I told myself.

The intense of the curiousity and excitement grew larger when i read the next text:

Jigger; 10.55PM: We must get there on time. 9AM sharp. Bring presentable clothes, no jacket! Money for lunch, if ever. This is serious, I swear! You haven't thought that we're going to Baguio last year, have you? This time, its a surprise for the two of u. mwah!

Yes, we've been to Baguio, August 2008. Jigger just texted me to pack my clothes enough for 3 or 4 days. But that time, he told me the plan although he never mentioned who will pay the expenses. But how about on Wednesday? There's no packing our clothes, just prepare presentable ones. And we have no idea where we are going.

"He's asking us NOT to discriminate him". James suddenly popped out again on my window.

"Why?" I wondered.

"I dunno. He told me he's getting crazy with his excitement." He replied.

"What's that all about?" Still confused.

"There are cocktail drinks and a lot of girls. What should we drink?" He mentioned.

"Scotch on the rocks!" I said. The only drink i know beside beers.

"Crotch on our laps! It's the best." James suggested.

I've never heard and tasted that drink before but i ignored it. I'm still thinking about Jigger's invitation.

"Is there any party? baptismal? or a wedding?" I guessed.

"I really don't know." James replied. "I'm asking him but he answers non-sense. I don't know what will I wear. Reminding me not to wear slippers."

"He also told me to look presentable." I added. "I think we're not going to a party." I assumed once i remember Jigger's text to bring extra money for lunch.

"I think that will be the moment he will walk on the ramp wearing BRIEFS!" James replied.

Shocked for what James have said and before i ask him what is that for, he signed out the his messenger and gone.

Beep...

Jigger; 11.05PM: Tux and Teng, sleep early tomorrow. We must be superfresh. Go for the Gold! Hope we reach this "watch out". I'm getting excited, promise. I'm controlling myself. It's hard for me not to share how nervous I am right now. I will reveal it tomorrow evening. There's no holding back. This is final.

Excited... confused... nervous... still have no idea what is on May 6. I wonder what will happen on Wednesday. I'll just do what Jigger wants. Tired to think.

the riddler never gives up...

qwerty really got me into this. when it comes to riddle, i'm game. but i think this time i failed. my mind's completely malfunctioning now. it makes me go crazy. i raised the white flag and said i give up. but still insisting me to go on and sent me another one:



life is a game of the strong and the willed...

never give up, thy goals be fulfilled...

if all my riddles make your head explode...

try looking for help, so to decode...

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succumb to thy game and you will figure it out...

i make people crazy, their heads filled with doubt...

however all thats within is an empty space...

i never leave a clue, so as not to be traced...

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i believe its already there...

just figure it out and bare...



i still have no name to guess. no lighting bulb above my head. i think i'll just beg for an easier riddle for me to solve.. haha.


So, have u figured it out?

the Riddle goes on...

so then i think and think...looking out for clues that might be hidden in each lines. i just ended up guessing a name...as i expected, it is a bad guess and sent me another tricky riddle:


i like the name but that is wrong...
my name however is not that long...
so, dont go crazy and boggle too much...
the first letter's on the word dutch...


i must say qwerty is good on creating riddles. i dunno where to start first, making my head explode.

so if u think you can guess the riddle now,
be free to hit me
and lets give it a shot... argggghhhh

Riddle me This, Riddle mE that

are u good at riddles? well, i am confident enough to say that i am good at it. i like games especially when it requires logical thinking, finding clues and concluding. its fun! isn't it? i don't give up and i don't look for cheats. one video game i like the most is "SILENT HILL". i played all of them part 1, 2, up to 4:the ROOM. and the exciting part of it, its very thrilling!

anyway, why am i talking bout riddles? lol. its funny i met someone in friendster and has a name "qwerty". we exchange messages then asked for his/her real name. and sent me this...

"your persistent but that wont do...

force me to give my name and number to you..

if the things you think of wont do the trick...

allow me to embark on a flirtatious flick...

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i am unreasonable and often snob...

im also a diamond, a heart, a spade and a club...

i gamble my life and fight the odds...

however i fail, ending up with the suds...

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now i give you a foolish game, so go figure it out...

my details are in, and never a letter without...

if the vowels go "ah" and the consonants go "oh"...

eliminate the unwanted, and forward you go...

enjoy!!!"

i admit. this is the most difficult riddle i've ever encountered. i cannot guess it right. yes i know, it is very challenging for me. but it makes me go crazy. how am i suppose to figure it out? haha.


if you got the brain... what is qwerty's name?

About the Author

This is more about me. Who i am.. what i like and what am i..


I watch NARUTO. Introduced by my friend "Joff". I asked him too many questions and answered me "just watch it from the beginning." And i'm hooked.



Avatar: the Last Air Bender; the legend of Aang. This is cool. Saw my nephew watching it on Nickelodeon and i was amazed by the intro. So i've downloaded the full anime and watched it on marathon.


Deathnote, anime and live-action movie. Introduced by my friend "Thrix". Nice logical thinking of the main characters. Its about a notebook once you've written someones name on it, he/she will die in 40 seconds in a heart attack. But beware of the rules of the notebook. It originally belonged to a deathgod (shinigami).



I play Ragnarok Online. This my first online game i play since my college days. With the RagnaBoys, Arthur, Onin, Manuel, and Bondoc. And we influenced Leo. LOL. First played on Chaos Server. Years past and Ragnaboys had to seperate thier paths. I'm back playing it on Valhalla Server now in Free-2-Play.

DOTA: Warcraft with a twist. I play just to have fun. i'm NOT an adik with this. I
don't gamble i'm not a pro.

Some of the online games I played are ROSE Online, Granado Espada, O2Jam, Pangya, Audition, Ran Online, Flyff, Gunbound...

I'm a FINAL FANTASY addict! LOL I like its original stories and stuffs.

I like surfing the net. everything!
I have friendster and facebook. and i'm addicted to facebooks applications. From non-sense quizzes to games apps:

Mafia Wars. Farm Town. Pet Society. Texas Hold 'EM Poker. Wahaha.

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Let's talk about FOOD:

My favorite ulam is TINOLA.
I hate AMPALAYA.
I like Jolibee's Crispy Fries dip in their Chicken Gravy.
I drink TROPICANA.
I don't drink Coke, Pepsi, Pop, RC. Diet or not. No sugar or what. Don't like black COlas. Dunno why.
I like seafoods! Shrimp, prawn, clams, name it! Although I have a slight allergy to these foods. "Masarap ang Bawal."
I love to cook. coz i love foods. i'm creating my recipes on my own.

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A nocturnal person.
Awake at night.
Likes to party every weekend.
San Mig Light and Marlboro lights gold are my best friends.
A frustrated singer in a videoke bar. Lol


Of course. i love to hang out with my friends.

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My Very First...

wow! this is it. i created this blog to express how i feel today and for the future. although I've created some blogs from other profile sites but i think blogger is the most accessible site. everyone can read it without registering.

honestly, i am inspired by someone. someone who seems very special to me. after a long long time of being single. at last "someone" came. i made this blog to show how happy i am now and how will i be in the following days.

FYI: I'm still single. "Someone" is my inspiration.

there are so many things I'd like to share with you guys but lets take one bite at a time. i have friends of course, but lets say when it comes to my other side, my emo-romanticist side, no one dares to listen. no one can understand and no one believes in me. they've known me as a jolly, happy go lucky and hard-headed friend that's why i can't blame them whenever they laugh about my emo dramas.

now this blog will be my outlet. I'll just plug myself in and express out all the feelings i have inside, without forcing people to listen. it's just about me and all the things that are connected with me.

This is ME! This is what i am! And if you could read this now... Welcome to my world!